but did you die?

I recently bought a sweatshirt that asks this question. I absolutely love wearing it. I think because I see how many people walk around this amazing life we are given and simply complain. They just can’t seem to embrace the wonder of truly living. Maybe that is because most of us don’t truly live. We…

silence

Silence. It used to terrify me. I literally could not stand the sound of it. So much that I would create waves, I would cause turmoil. If not with others, within the walls of my mind. I would over think, over analyze, and create things that did not even exist. The noise comforted me. It…

the human heart

Stretch the capacity of the human heart…All too often we close our hearts to things that stretch us. That cause us to trust and give up control of a situation. I am convinced though that trust, and rest go hand in hand. In order to truly live we have to learn both- we cannot have…

Easter

A celebration of life renewed. A sign of spring which brings new life. What better day to begin again.I have spent much of my time regretting my past. Reliving my mistakes. Wishing for a different ending. But what if my ending were just the way it was meant to be. With every ending comes a…

healing

It takes healing to be able to look at yourself and be completely honest about who you have been. With healing you realize that in some situations you really WERE the asshole. In some situations, you were an ASKHOLE (not listening to others and being completely stubborn in your ways). You can clearly see where…

messy

If anyone thinks that healing is one and done, then they have not truly had a trauma to walk through.Life is incredibly messy.People are imperfect- as much as we do not want to admit that.I have found through my writings that I write similar things, over and over. It is not because I didn’t experience…

Don’t Throw It Away

When you love something, you don’t throw it away. I have been cleaning things out recently, getting rid of some things, and packing others. There were a few items in particular that held so many memories for me. The sting of times past brought tears to my eyes. I found myself lost in the smell,…