pain

I bought a truck recently. I love this truck. It is the first vehicle I have ever owned and have not wanted or wished for something different. Ironically, this truck has caused me several issues since I bought it. It has needed repairs three times in three months. I was told if it were not…

Letting Go  Learning the art of letting go is a tricky lesson. I used to believe that letting go meant failure. It meant I could not have what I wanted. I would hang on so tightly that I would choke the life out of whatever potential it may have had. Until I met you. The…

Why are there so many songs about rainbows? (and what’s on the other side)I heard this song today and it brought tears to my eyes. So many memories. So many hopes and dreams. So much faith. And for what?I still sit here, loving more than I am loved. Giving more than I receive. I used…

I have spent my life putting everyone else first. I have let my thoughts be consumed with their thoughts, their feelings, their desires. I have rearranged my entire life around pleasing them. I have lessened who I am in order to try and fit into their world. I have put myself at risk- financially, emotionally,…

bittersweet It’s for the best. That’s what they always say. How can that be when part of my heart is with you. I try to hold my head up. To convince myself, it will be ok. But my heart and my soul have a void. The memories. The hopes. The words… Just an echo. I…

Masking is when we hide things about ourselves in order to be accepted. It is not necessarily malicious, but it helps us cope with our inadequacies around those we want to approve of us. Essentially, we learn what others want to see in us, and we give that to them, keeping part of who we…