pain

A broken heart. Most fear it. All try to avoid it. But I-I have lived my life with a broken heart. When I love, it is wholly- fully- ardently. I give everything and hold nothing back. More often than not, I am left alone and broken. Discarded. But with each break, something happens. More love…

It takes healing to be able to look at yourself and be completely honest about who you have been. With healing you realize that in some situations you really WERE the asshole. In some situations, you were an ASKHOLE (not listening to others and being completely stubborn in your ways). You can clearly see where…

Things can be even more beautiful after they have been broken.  It is so easy to live with regret. To look back and wish desperately that things could have passed you by or you would have acted differently.  But I have realized lately that sometimes we actually have to go through circumstances to become who…

We spend our days dreaming of success. We make plans and execute. We believe our life is measured by what we achieve. But life is made of more than our success. Our life is measured by our failures. By our lessons. We become who we are by learning. If we never make a mistake, we…

Masking is when we hide things about ourselves in order to be accepted. It is not necessarily malicious, but it helps us cope with our inadequacies around those we want to approve of us. Essentially, we learn what others want to see in us, and we give that to them, keeping part of who we…

Tormented. Deep in despair. I have been there and back at least one hundred times. The questions of why. The doubt of having any worth to anyone. The mirage of a normal life. A façade. Because deep inside there is a knowing that it is just a game. One where I have to put on…