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hope

Hope is a funny thing.

I believe it is what keeps us living this life.

The definition of hope is an expectation. A trust in something.

We all hope for things in this life.

We expect them to happen to us eventually. Thus, we keep going, we do not give up.

Even in the face of disappointment and failure, we continue to hope.

Why?

Because without hope there is no point in living.

If we cannot trust in the fact that one day we will achieve what we desire, then why keep trying?We would just give up.

I have been called “an easy mark” and naïve more times than I can count.

I have also been taken advantage of and hurt more times than I can count.

But you know what else?

I have been true to my heart every single time.

I have given of myself and my life freely. I have continued to hope one day I will experience that in return.

I have yet to fulfill this hope in my life.

But I do not regret being who I am. I would rather be true to my heart. To be genuine and transparent and risk the heartache of being used, then to be jaded and be the one hurting another human.

I will take my gullible soul over a selfish one every day of the week.

I love being the tornado of love and blessing that I am. I love being “too much”. I would rather be that than not enough.

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life is!

I had the honor of meeting an 83-year-old man who has been struggling with prostate cancer. What is so inspiring to me is that not only has he not given up on life but he’s opening two businesses and trying to write a book which is how we connected. He wanted my guidance on it….

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the storm

Fear. Bewilderment. Anger. Confusion. And then, even more fear. It is a whirlwind of emotions. When your world is turned upside down and you were just barely surviving to begin with. Here is where we find out who we really are, and what we really made of. Here is where we must decide if we’re…

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letting go

Letting Go Learning the art of letting go is a tricky lesson. I used to believe that letting go meant failure. It meant I could not have what I wanted. I would hang on so tightly that I would choke the life out of whatever potential it may have had. Until I met you. The…

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lonely

My adopted dad came for a visit this past week. It was a wonderful time just being together and laughing. I had forgotten how much I miss having a person to do things with. Someone who knows all of my struggles and my weaknesses, has seen my failures and shortcomings, but has also watched my…

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in the deep

Tormented. Deep in despair. I have been there and back at least one hundred times. The questions of why. The doubt of having any worth to anyone. The mirage of a normal life. A façade. Because deep inside there is a knowing that it is just a game. One where I have to put on…

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masking

Masking is when we hide things about ourselves in order to be accepted. It is not necessarily malicious, but it helps us cope with our inadequacies around those we want to approve of us. Essentially, we learn what others want to see in us, and we give that to them, keeping part of who we…